Tracy White

Seeing Clearly

In choose your destiny on January 23, 2010 at 6:31 pm

“Honestly, Gaylene,” I said to my sister this week, “I don’t ever see myself getting a job.”

Our conversation continued as we chatted about the economy and life. But here I am, a few days later, and that little phrase keeps snagging my attention.

“…don’t ever see myself getting a…”

“…see myself…”

OMG—I get it! I stopped visioning.

You see, once upon a time I imaged up the sweetest home in the quaintest town. I saw it. I knew it. And I even drew it. And one day…I drove down a perfect little street and there it was: for sale!

(Damn, I was good at visioning!) [pat-pat-patting myself on the back]

And then my life shifted, stretched, and well…the image faded.

And I stopped visioning.

And here’s my big confession: I stopped believing that visioning worked. (And honestly, it got so dark that I couldn’t even think of a single thing to vision!)

[Granted, that darned, internal negadob voice didn’t help as it bemoaned, “That dream didn’t work out so what makes you think this hoodoo-voodoo imaging will work now?!”]

[Oh, hush, you old poop!]

So here goes: Eyes closed. What do I see?

  1. Oooh, an invitation to speak at TED. Cool. Very cool indeed!
  2. Chatting with Oprah on her Soul Series. Yes, yes, I can see it.
  3. Painting. Really? That’s a new one, but I like it.
  4. Spiritual and Creative Unearthing Workshps. Ooohhh…I’m excited to teach those!
  5. Zoëful Noise Community Art Projects. I can’t wait to start those!
  6. and…
  1. You go girl! Love you!

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